INFATUATION

This word got me thinking.
It is "Love of Emotion".
By golly, I just found out what I needed to know.
But then again, I reckon this infatuation somehow triggered towards LOVE.
Hmm, I'm not too sure.
Another thing on my mind: "Love at first sight".
I still don't know what's the explanation for that.
I have a slight idea, but what exactly is it?
Whatever the reason are for my so-called FEELINGS.
I'll just laugh at it.

Leave me alone for a sec.

Sometimes I just wish that life wasn't as hard as it is now.
Everyday is like a new challenge. 

Sometimes I just don't want to be bombarded with other complications and situations.

It makes me reflect my own life and just fudging make me DEPRESS!

I'm going to take it easy.
Singing and listening to music is actually a good way of making me calm.
No stress. No stress.
I can't be bothered with replying now.
I'll take my time when I feel like it. 

Note #10

Slipped at the bath tub,
Hit my knee.
Pain oh pain.
This was 2 hours ago.

Note #9

Scratched arm.

Broken-heart songs.

Late night crying.

Memory flooded in.
Regrets over regrets.

Hmmph, just another day/night for a girl.

Note #8

Need to distract myself somehow. 
Stupid Life. 
Stupid Crush. 
Stupid Reality. 
The truth hurts.


Time to give up now.

I fall badly

I had a conversation on the phone yesterday night with my good buddy who's in Korea right now and she asked me what's happening with me and my crush. I don't think it's going nowhere since I don't know what's going on now, there's mixed signal I can't comprehend with. But I couldn't help it but to laugh at her for asking me about it. She said "Woah, you really are falling hahaha, good job Amy". My friends and their mums (Can you believe that? Hahaha) kept pestering me when I'll get a boyfriend. Well sorrrryyy for being such a loser for not being able to attract the opposite gender!! I am trying really hard to find one ohkay? Urgh! Is there something wrong with me? This is lame! 


Love is such a complicated thing isn't it?


Will this crush be the same as the past ones? Will I fall happily? Will it cause my heart pain again? 


Only fate will know. 

Smile

My mum caught me smiling. 
I didn't realise I was smiling whilst I was reading the post on my phone.
I had to hide any trace of smiles.
It's really hard not to smile.
The messages made my day.


^__^